Setahun Sudah Berlalu......Al-Fatihah

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Last year, at about this time around.. I was in Leo Burnett's Office.. while waiting for my tea break, I received a call from Hasni.. a friend of hubby's and mine. I still remember the conversation...

Hasni: "Assalamualaikum Sity.. ko kat ne?"
Ummi:"Waalaikumussalam.. aku kat Menara Olympia .. kat Leo Burnett .. ada meeting.. nape ye?"
Hasni:"Hmm.. ko tau tak Aqam accident?"
Ummi:"Accident? Eh ye ke? Tatau pulak...teruk ke?"
Hasni:"Hmm...aku dengar dia meninggal..hmmm"
Ummi:"Allah.. biar betul ko ni hasni.. dia baru call aku tadi..."
Hasni:"Hmm takpe lahh.. aku try tanya orang lain dulu ok.."
Ummi:"hmm ok..."

I was stunned.. speechless.. what else can I say.. dumbfolded.. toreh muka tak kuar darah.. then my phone rang again...It was Fishie..another dear friend..

Fishie:"Ty.. betul ke Aqam ninggal Ty?"
Ummi:"Tu laa.. aku baru dpt tau dari Hasni.. betul ke wei? Dia baru je call aku.. Jgn la memain.. aku tak suka laa main main cam ni"
Fishie:"Aku dapat YM ni .. azrai yang anta...tak kan azrai nak memain kot"
Ummi:"Azrai?? apesal dia tak cakap kat aku? betul ke ??"
Fishie:"Aku nak call org lain dulu.. kang aku call ko balik.. ko kat ne ni?"
Ummi:"Ok.. aku kat LB baru abis meeting.. kang ko call aku balik ek"
FIshie:"OK"

Then I made a call to Arwah's phone.. no ringging.. **** betul ke ni?? Allah.. jgn lah... I tried again and again.. I didn't want the news to be real.. I can't accept it if it is real..
then I called Fawcett .. arwah's ex housemate...

Ringging....I didn't had a chance to open my mouth yet and fawcett had replied...
Fawcet:"Betul sity.. betul.. apa ko dengar betul... tgh hari tadi.. nadya kat spital nih.. "
Ummi:"Ok..."

then I felt like my world came tumbling down.. I was so dizzy .. and I couldn't stop my tears no more.. then another call came in...this time is was Nadya...

Ummi:"Nad.. ko kat ne?"
Nadya:"Aku kat spital..baru kluar bilik mayat.. Aqam dah takde Sity".. she cried and couldn't continue any more... I can't remember much .. I was crying as well..

Nora.. my officemate had to calm me down as I need do drive home alone.. it was sad.. it was bad.. I could still recall our conversation at 12 noon.. she was looking for my Manager that afternoon.. she said she had to settle some things.. and that was the last thing I heard from her... :(

I know that with tears I can never bring her back..
I know that I will neither see her dimple smile nor hear funny chuckle voice...
I know that I will never get to hear her calling me "Mukky..."
I know I never had the chance to tell her I love her as a friend...
I know I never had the chance to thank her for her kindness...
All I know is that beautiful memories that I share will always remain in my heart..
And when Indah is big enough to understand the meaning of friendship...
I will always tell Indah about my dear friend Allahyarhamah Nor'Ashiqin Bt Mohd Ali...

Al-Fatihah.. how I missed you so dearly... :~~~(